Monthly Update/Birthday reflection

Taken from my caption from my recent IG post, but I couldn't say it any better. I'm down 24.4 pounds from 2/28/24. I may be up 6.6 pounds from last year's birthday, but it's the overall journey I'm looking at, and I'd say I'm doing ok...

Comparison is the thief of joy.

I was taking a break at the Flume Gorge, drinking water and enjoy the scenery. A random lady said hi to me and walked away. She came back and said, "Do you want me to take a picture of you?" I said, "No that's ok." What I meant was, "I'm sweaty, and me being in the picture would ruin the beauty of nature."

She said, "Are you sure? It's quite a nice picture from behind. So peaceful, like you're saying here I am enjoying the scenery. Just put your backpack on to cover the sweat marks." I said ok, all amused, but...

Why does it matter if I'm sweaty, or take some breaks on a hike because I'm out of breath? I'm out there doing the thing, and being 100+ pounds overweight is a brag moment in this case. I'm doing it, why can't you? I deserve to do all of the things, whether society likes it or not.

I turn 33 tomorrow and I'm just going to live life. Why compare myself to people? I want to be in a relationship and start a family, but I can't let my jealousy of others living their best lives stop me from living mine. Maybe I'm meant to be in this place at this moment.

Cheers to a new year of life and acceptance of what is 🥂